I had a choice about what to blog about tonight. Either the impending stress load known as Valentine's Day tomorrow, or a more lighthearted subject, namely getting old.
I am personally not a big fan of Valentine's Day as I think it puts so much unnecessary stress on a relationship, of any stage. Rather than pull the petals off of a flower for those who might think tomorrow is the ultimate way to show love I will go with option two of the blog.
I am going to turn forty this year. That's right the Big 4-0 is barreling down on me like a freight train. In 262 days I will no longer be seen as a young man, at least not by anyone under 70. Sure I have a very youthful appearance, I am routinely mistaken for being ten years younger than I am. However that does not change the fact that the hands of time are moving forward never to stop until the end.
When I was on the verge of turning thirty I had only very slight heart palpitations at the thought of no longer being a twenty-something. It was not a big deal since I was not even half way to being a senior citizen. Now? Now I am ten years from AARP. It's scary when I actually sit down and look at it and look at where I am and where my 18-year old self thought I'd be at forty. Granted there is still nearly nine months until I cross that line but it is doubtful that some sort of earth shattering event will happen between now and then. That is not to say things aren't continuing to trend in a good direction, it is just that it's a slower, more organic climb rather than a rocket.
I look around at the vast majority of my friends, they are all married, many with children, many owning their own homes. I have none of those things as of this moment. It does not mean I do not want them, it just means the right opportunities have not arisen yet. That sounds good.
Does this mean that I am not where I should be, or where I am meant to be?
I would love for some folks forty and above to share where they were at that age. Whether they felt they were right where they wanted to be, or if they felt that they were still getting their lives together.
I feel I am still getting things put together. Some days I am frustrated by this, other days I have more patience and tell myself that all things come in time.
Where do you fall on this? Is forty the new thirty? Is age just a number and you're only as old as you feel? Or are the little creaks and cracks I am starting to feel the beginning of the end of my warranty?
Okay enough of the seriousness, here is a photo I took at West Bay in Osterville this week. It was cold but just a reminder that there are only 35 days until spring!